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Well.. It was a Saturday, but still got to wake up early; @ 6.30.. Had to accompany my auntie together with my cousins to SGH; my cousin had to extract his teeth. So what am I there for? Assistant baby sitting again lor.. I always does that.. Haha..

Can't believe I spent my entire week with only less than 5 hrs of sleep per day… Yest left my workplace @ almost 11pm – Worked 13 hrs round the clock.. I had to stay & get my lesson stuff ready. Arghhhhh... Been having spliting headache everyday that always lead to a migraine. This happened for 2 wks & still having it nw; giddy spells always follows soon after. Damn stressed up @ work!!! I don’t know why, but for the past weeks, I’ve always been having dreams in my sleep EVERYDAY, so tt means I’m not resting enuf @ all.. & the funny thing is I always dream of car accidents – a number of times me in the car with someone else and the driver lets go of the stirring wheel. Then I will always wake up with a jerk feeling damn uneasy.. Other times are always me witnessing a car accident happening – a number of times happening to pple arnd me.

Funny yeh? Why I suddenly have all this weird dreams. I myself also don’t know why. But every time I wake up frm these dreams, I always feel v uneasy & keep fearing sthing will happen to the pple arnd me. I get very emotional & always fear for the worst. I don’t know if I’m being superstitious, well… Sthing really did happen. My friend’s bf passed away in an accident. We all were frm the same sec sch & graduated in the same yr. Weird huh… Sometimes I really can’t explain stuff lidat… & I can’t explain why I feel bad. Hm… If you guys watched the 9pm show on channel 8 every Mon to Fri, you might haf noticed tt the car that hit another car landed wheels up in a drain. I got into an accident a yr back, and that’s EXACTLY how the damn car landed up in; only diff is tt I didn’t land in a drain ttt’s all. The miracles… I escaped ALIVE, & I’m very thankful for that. Escaped unhurt except for a bump only – no scratches whatsoever. Still trying to get over tt shadow in me – tts y whenever a car I’m in travels even @ 80 km/hr, I can get the creeps..

Well, well, well… tt accident taught me 1 thing that in the past I would haf just brushed through the thought – NEVER TAKE ANYTHING FOR GRANTED. Especially nw tt my frn’s ex bf passed away in an accident… I don’t know; but this fact hits me real hard… Lately when I see old pple selling things etc, I feel a lot for them. @ this age they shd b enjoying their life but still slogging away. I miss my grandfather very much – he passed away when I was 15, and frm the day he died, I feel a strong sense of guilt even till nw. Lately whenever I think of him I always cry. I regretted not having treasure him when he was still arnd… If he can hear me now, I want to tell him I’m sorry for how I’ve treated him… Sigh…

The accident I got into changed my entire life drastically. My opinion of life, my perspective towards many things. If anyone asks me how a person’s should life be? I’ll tell him/her: Live your life in a way you want it to be. Create meaning in your life that you’ll enjoy. Live with satisfaction so that when you are old, you are able to savor the taste of your past with sweetness…

This blog is real long… How do I feel now? Emotional… Regret… Sadness… This is unusual of me… I survived, and I’m going to make the most out of it… @_@ …